Today, I knew the stars a little more than I used to. My many firsts were used today. And the lonely walk by the harbor was something I had always dreamt of in a long while. Time spent with the stars put a smile on my face but as the night ended, this smile was taken apart by the feared voice of the world. Is it that important what people may think? Or was I just drunk with just a few sips of sparkling wine, or maybe is just true that if you wanna get drunk, you will be even if you don’t dream.
I’ve never meant to run away from my dreams. I know if I could I would stay by the beach forever. That’s all I ever dreamt of my entire life and since the day I encountered the beach. It is my destiny to spend my life enjoying the warmth, peace, comfort and joy that the beach has to offer me especially through the many rides of my life.
But I have neither forgotten the stars. Since the day someone thought me the importance of stars, I would never forget to take a peek of the sky if there were stars shining down on me or not. But I have never meant to get any closer than this as the stars were always too far from reach.
All I could do is gaze at the night sky and look at the stars twinkle back at me. But it would run away from me and most of the time it would hide away. Why now do the stars come back into my life? And this time the star is coming too close and I am afraid I would burn myself if I try to touch the stars. It’s no more me looking at the night skies and wondering where my dreams would take me. Somehow it’s getting out of hand and it isn’t good.
But somewhere deep in my heart I know this…Unlike the warm beach, whose warmth and love I can feel and I know the beach would do nothing at its best to hurt me. The beach and I can never be separated, that’s how much I love the beach. The stars will only shine my life, and I will be someone who helps the stars know how important they are as well but boundaries will be boundaries. The beach and the stars, they will be a definite part of my life. And I hope they will never leave me.
I’ve never meant to run away from my dreams. I know if I could I would stay by the beach forever. That’s all I ever dreamt of my entire life and since the day I encountered the beach. It is my destiny to spend my life enjoying the warmth, peace, comfort and joy that the beach has to offer me especially through the many rides of my life.
But I have neither forgotten the stars. Since the day someone thought me the importance of stars, I would never forget to take a peek of the sky if there were stars shining down on me or not. But I have never meant to get any closer than this as the stars were always too far from reach.
All I could do is gaze at the night sky and look at the stars twinkle back at me. But it would run away from me and most of the time it would hide away. Why now do the stars come back into my life? And this time the star is coming too close and I am afraid I would burn myself if I try to touch the stars. It’s no more me looking at the night skies and wondering where my dreams would take me. Somehow it’s getting out of hand and it isn’t good.
But somewhere deep in my heart I know this…Unlike the warm beach, whose warmth and love I can feel and I know the beach would do nothing at its best to hurt me. The beach and I can never be separated, that’s how much I love the beach. The stars will only shine my life, and I will be someone who helps the stars know how important they are as well but boundaries will be boundaries. The beach and the stars, they will be a definite part of my life. And I hope they will never leave me.
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